I still couldn't cry...

I just watched for the second time yung 500 days of summer sa office kanina. And I was still blown away. Favorite movie ko na ito. Ganda!! I can relate dun sa hardship of having a broken heart. Nakita ko yung struggle and pain.

I can actually connect dun sa character. I couldn't help but feel sorry for Tom, the lead character. Pero kung hindi naman iniwan ni Summer si Tom, Tom wouldn't have realized that he could be more than just a greeting card writer (although, on a personal note, I find his job cool!). He was contented where he was. But when Summer left him, he was thrown out of his comfort zone. Na depress sya, nag quit sya sa job nya at nadepress ulit ng bonggang bongga. But after a while he picked himself up and realized that things didn't have to be that way. He decided to go back to his first love-- Architecture!! He was on the road to living his dream. And it all happened because Summer left him.That’s the beauty of all the messy things, they lead us to the greater things. Things that we didn’t know we are capable to achieve!

Ang dami nyang realization. Isa na dun yung sinabe nung little sister nya sa kanya na--

 'Look, I know you think she was the one, but I don't! Now, I think you are just remembering the good stuff. Next time you look back, I really think you should look again."

It just means na para mapabilis ang healing process don't look at the beautiful things that you shared with the person, instead visit the not so good memories because these things will surely accelerate your grieving process.

Sa akin, tama yung movie. Swak. Yes, I had my heart really broken and it did consume me but not anymore. I won't let it. I do have a new perspective now. Things are changing. Little things like being punctual at work, being inspired to start and finish my CIA review, having a chance to mold lives and so on. Lots of beautiful things are happening actually. I have got time for friends, for videoke, badminton, reading. I can possibly do anything I want.

But of course, realistically, it's not gonna be easy but like what I said, you can only move on if you are willing. And I am very much willing!

The movie is awesome and if I may quote the director, he said--

"In Tom's eyes, Summer is perfection, but perfection has no depth. Summer's not a girl, she's a phase."

So true. Yung nangyare in the past-- it's just a phase. And like any phase, it will end and eventually you gotta move on. I know I'm in the right path, although, admittedly I'm not quite there yet, but in time I will be. And that's the best part!!!

In the movie, Tom outgrew Summer. He found Autumn. And Autumn is way way above Summer.

Here are the lines Tom and Autumn exchanged:

Autumn: Have I seen you before?

Tom: Me? I don't think so.

Autumn: Do you ever go to Angela's Plaza?

Tom: Yes... That's like my favorite spot in the city.

Autumn: Yeah, except for the parking lots.

Tom: Yeah, yeah I agree.

Autumn: Yeah, yeah I think I've seen you there.

Tom: Really?

Autumn: Yeah...

Tom: I haven't seen you?

Autumn: You must not have been looking...

Tom: ...

I must not have been looking!